depressing news..and i couldn’t share it to someone i consider the closest person in my life. no sense in saying something when you know this person couldn’t help. i’m all alone with this one and i curse myself for being unable to do anything. the only thing that consoles me–and to me this is undoubtedly the most important–is that it’s not health-related. so i guess i should be thankful for that. what depresses me is that even if circumstances are beyond my control, ultimately, i only have myself to blame. and what is worst is that i may be, albeit inadvertently, be the one to blame for a loved one’s future to change direction. my inability to give of what is asked of me may be the reason for a loved one’s future to shine a little less brighter.